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From a bestselling memoirist, a thoughtful and provocative story of changing identity, complex sexuality, and enduring family relationships   At age 36, while serving on a jury, author Molly Wizenberg found herself drawn to a female attorney she hardly knew. Married to a man for nearly a decade and mother to a toddler, Wizenberg tried to return to her life as she knew it, From a bestselling memoirist, a thoughtful and provocative story of changing identity, complex sexuality, and enduring family relationships   At age 36, while serving on a jury, author Molly Wizenberg found herself drawn to a female attorney she hardly knew. Married to a man for nearly a decade and mother to a toddler, Wizenberg tried to return to her life as she knew it, but something inside her had changed irredeemably. Instead, she would discover that the trajectory of our lives is rarely as smooth or as logical as we’d like to believe.   Like many of us, Wizenberg had long understood sexual orientation as a stable part of ourselves: we’re “born this way.” Suddenly she realized that her story was more complicated. Who was she, she wondered, if something at her very core could change so radically? The Fixed Stars is a taut, electrifying memoir exploring timely and timeless questions about desire, identity, and the limits and possibilities of family. In honest and searing prose, Wizenberg forges a new path: through the murk of separation and divorce, coming out to family and friends, learning to co-parent a young child, and realizing a new vision of love. The result is a frank and moving story about letting go of rigid definitions and ideals that no longer fit, and learning instead who we really are.  


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From a bestselling memoirist, a thoughtful and provocative story of changing identity, complex sexuality, and enduring family relationships   At age 36, while serving on a jury, author Molly Wizenberg found herself drawn to a female attorney she hardly knew. Married to a man for nearly a decade and mother to a toddler, Wizenberg tried to return to her life as she knew it, From a bestselling memoirist, a thoughtful and provocative story of changing identity, complex sexuality, and enduring family relationships   At age 36, while serving on a jury, author Molly Wizenberg found herself drawn to a female attorney she hardly knew. Married to a man for nearly a decade and mother to a toddler, Wizenberg tried to return to her life as she knew it, but something inside her had changed irredeemably. Instead, she would discover that the trajectory of our lives is rarely as smooth or as logical as we’d like to believe.   Like many of us, Wizenberg had long understood sexual orientation as a stable part of ourselves: we’re “born this way.” Suddenly she realized that her story was more complicated. Who was she, she wondered, if something at her very core could change so radically? The Fixed Stars is a taut, electrifying memoir exploring timely and timeless questions about desire, identity, and the limits and possibilities of family. In honest and searing prose, Wizenberg forges a new path: through the murk of separation and divorce, coming out to family and friends, learning to co-parent a young child, and realizing a new vision of love. The result is a frank and moving story about letting go of rigid definitions and ideals that no longer fit, and learning instead who we really are.  

30 review for The Fixed Stars

  1. 4 out of 5

    Jessica Woodbury

    2.5 stars. There are two questions I always consider first and foremost when reading memoir. The first is whether the writer has enough distance from the thing they are writing about. It is possible to write about a recent time in your life, but it is extremely rare to do it well. (And when you do it well you have to make the recency of it work for you, to make it more visceral, more focused and fine-tuned.) The second is whether the writer has enough to write about at all. This is a trickier qu 2.5 stars. There are two questions I always consider first and foremost when reading memoir. The first is whether the writer has enough distance from the thing they are writing about. It is possible to write about a recent time in your life, but it is extremely rare to do it well. (And when you do it well you have to make the recency of it work for you, to make it more visceral, more focused and fine-tuned.) The second is whether the writer has enough to write about at all. This is a trickier question because it may seem like a large event should be plenty. But somehow the biggest things in life, the things that are giant from your own perspective, can feel boring on the page. All of literature is marriage and breakups and motherhood. It is not so easy to take something people have read thousands of times before and make it feel new and urgent and unique. Again, it is possible to write about something small and specific, but you have to open it up and make the reader feel it or see it in a way that feels new. For me, this book fails on both counts. Wizenberg feels far too close to everything that happened to have much perspective on it. It feels more like she is in the act of working through it and figuring it out, more therapy session than book. It seems likely that she could write another memoir about the exact same series of events ten years from now and it would be an entirely different book (and I suspect a better one). Not every story, no matter how deeply you feel it, is ready to be a memoir. Love is overwhelming. Being a mother, going through a divorce, they are such big things. But they can also be quite boring on the page. They can feel lifeless without the right perspective and the right prose. Memoir can be an act of emotional violence to other people in your life. Good memoir about painful topics and difficult relationships requires the ability to be as honest about the other people in your life as you are about yourself. This book is not. She is kind to her ex-husband, kind to her current partner, and these relationships feel empty. In contrast, her first relationship with a woman is shown with much more clarity and spark. Which makes the other two only more limp by comparison. And because that relationship happens in tandem with her marriage and separation, it is immediately uneven. With her first girlfriend, we get the best parts of the book. We get details, we get frustrations. We follow Wizenberg as she charges into a new kind of sex, and then when she has made only a little progress, the story ends. We get almost nothing about sexual exploration with her next partner and we have almost nothing about her sexual history with her husband. We don't get enough context for the story, there is no beginning and no end, just this middle without introduction or resolution. I am not the audience for this book. I realized this after a while, realized that part of why I had trouble connecting to it is that it is not for me. Who is it for? Straight women and folks questioning their sexuality, I think. It feels almost like an apology, an explanation, an attempt to lay out why she was once one of them and no longer is. It spends an awful lot of time defining and explaining. For much of the story she writes about queer people as if we are another species, tells stories of when and how she has seen us in the wild, wants to lay out the boundaries of what we are. Some of this is an attempt to explain herself, to try to figure out why she did not see herself as one of us before. That I can understand. I was not the kind of queer who knew it when I was 6. But there is still a remove that stays in place for the entire book where she does not ever see herself as joining a community as much as staking out some other territory altogether. You would think that I, a queer woman who has also gone through a divorce from a man that led to me getting to explore my queerness more fully, would find much to relate to here but instead I found almost nothing at all. At the end of the day, it does not matter to me if you have explained sexual fluidity as a thing that exists and has been documented. It matters whether you have showed me how it feels, and I never got to that point. The style here is, I admit, not my preference. It is loose and little of it is rooted in actual moments, instead it is more rooting around bigger, vaguer feelings. Wizenberg is working through these big, difficult changes while also figuring out her own identity. But the times when she stops her own story to quote someone else, to summarize someone's research in sexuality or gender, it doesn't lift the story. Perhaps it is helpful to her to see herself clearly, but it does not help the reader. It is also troubling to have yet another book where a cis woman explains to us how her trans partner defines themself. (Similarly there are times when she explains to us how divorce generally penalizes women financially more than men, but her privilege means it wasn't like that for her, etc.) As much as it may not sound like it here, I like reading about queer experiences that are different from mine. I like exploring the breadth of our community and the way our other identities intersect with our queerness. But I never felt like I saw anything more clearly in this book. I did not understand Wizenberg any better when it was over. And to be quite honest I'm not sure I would have finished it if I didn't already know who she was from reading her blog decades ago. The queer community has been hesitant to accept fluidity and a lack of labels, it is not always willing to expand boundaries, but this book doesn't do much to open up that conversation.

  2. 4 out of 5

    Christine

    4.5 stars rounded to 5 stars I rarely read memoirs, but this one called to me. The Fixed Stars is a very frank and absorbing account of Ms. Wizenberg’s painful yet steadfast journey to find herself at the age of 37. After ten years of marriage to her best friend and father (Brandon) of her only child (June), Molly is awakened by a very unexpected draw towards a lesbian attorney while serving jury duty. Over the next year, Molly and Brandon try valiantly to make things work within new parameters. U 4.5 stars rounded to 5 stars I rarely read memoirs, but this one called to me. The Fixed Stars is a very frank and absorbing account of Ms. Wizenberg’s painful yet steadfast journey to find herself at the age of 37. After ten years of marriage to her best friend and father (Brandon) of her only child (June), Molly is awakened by a very unexpected draw towards a lesbian attorney while serving jury duty. Over the next year, Molly and Brandon try valiantly to make things work within new parameters. Unfortunately for Brandon, he is at a disadvantage as Molly, for the most part, has put aside her dreams in order to help Brandon achieve his and is more than ready to change course. I was really impressed with Molly. She puts her heart and soul, sweat and tears into discovering who she is, what her goals are and how to achieve them. She takes Brandon to therapy and tries everything in her power to see if they can do this together and makes sure Brandon is as okay as possible throughout her trek to explore her own needs. I especially liked how she made sure her small daughter understands the basics of what is happening and remains an essentially well-adjusted kid. Molly is willing to open herself up to many people during her journey and just lays it all out there. How many of us can do that? She deeply researched her issues and includes many excellent references in a bibliography at the back of the book. Molly’s story is intimate, brave and inspiring. She is also an author by trade, and her writing style is excellent. Though it is nonfiction, it reads easily as if it were a novel. And for other avid readers similar to me who like to be educated while reading for pleasure, there is opportunity to learn much about gender fluidity. I highly recommend this memoir to all interested in reading about a fascinating journey in self-discovery and also those who want to learn more about gender identity. Beautiful job, Ms. Wizenberg! I’d like to thank Net Galley, Abrams Press, and Ms. Molly Wizenberg for an ARC of this book. Opinions are mine alone and are not biased in any way.

  3. 5 out of 5

    Jenne

    You know how when someone you sort of know has a really unexpected breakup, and you desperately want to ask them for all the details but that would be rude? This book is like if that person showed up on your doorstep with a LARGE bottle of whiskey and proceeded to tell you exactly what went down.

  4. 5 out of 5

    Jennifer ~ TarHeelReader

    I LOVE reading memoirs, and I love listening to them, especially when they are read by the author. I had the best of both worlds because I both read and listened to The Fixed Stars. Molly Wizenberg shares her story that begins when she’s 36 and serving on a jury. She is attracted to a female attorney. This is a dilemma of sorts because she is married with a small child at home. That moment of attraction is a turning point for Wizenberg, something shifts in her sexual orientation, making her quest I LOVE reading memoirs, and I love listening to them, especially when they are read by the author. I had the best of both worlds because I both read and listened to The Fixed Stars. Molly Wizenberg shares her story that begins when she’s 36 and serving on a jury. She is attracted to a female attorney. This is a dilemma of sorts because she is married with a small child at home. That moment of attraction is a turning point for Wizenberg, something shifts in her sexual orientation, making her question all she thinks she knows about herself. She openly shares her new path, along with co-parenting and coming out to friends and family. Overall, I found Molly Wizenberg’s story to be brave, powerful, and intimately told. It’s apparent she put her whole heart into writing her story. I received a gifted copy. All opinions are my own. Many of my reviews can also be found on my blog: www.jennifertarheelreader.com and instagram: www.instagram.com/tarheelreader

  5. 4 out of 5

    Lauren

    I’d have to do some serious math to remember when I started reading Orangette, @molly.wizenberg’s blog, but a dozen years? I definitely read her memoir A Homemade Life while living in Harlem (2009) as I have vivid memories of reading it in my corner laundromat and I remember reading an ARC of Delancey at Sit and Wonder the very month that I got married. This preamble is just to say that I’ve been invested in her storytelling for a while. I was so excited to read her latest memoir which is, in br I’d have to do some serious math to remember when I started reading Orangette, @molly.wizenberg’s blog, but a dozen years? I definitely read her memoir A Homemade Life while living in Harlem (2009) as I have vivid memories of reading it in my corner laundromat and I remember reading an ARC of Delancey at Sit and Wonder the very month that I got married. This preamble is just to say that I’ve been invested in her storytelling for a while. I was so excited to read her latest memoir which is, in broad strokes, a departure from her previous works which centered around food. That said, Wizenberg is always circling the self, family, friends, loved ones—everyone with whom you share a drink or meal. Her voice is so warm that the reader always feels like a confidant. Rather than provide much in the way of plot summary, I’ll just say that at age 36, married for many years and a mother for several years, Wizenberg found that her sexual orientation had shifted. This awareness was the first of many shifts that lead to a thorough re-evaluation of her history and what she thought of as her self. When I first learned that Wizenberg had gone through this experience (which I read about on her blog; I miss it still), I thought to myself, “Thank goodness Maggie Nelson wrote THE ARGONAUTS so that Molly could read it!” And now I can say thank goodness Molly wrote THE FIXED STARS which is a rigorous and passionate investigation into the real marrow of how we know ourselves and how we weather the inevitable changes of our lives. Changes in desire, in identity, in companionship, needs (small and expansive). This book was an avid reminder to me that conversation is vital to the health of any relationship and that we don’t make mistakes as long as we are clear about our needs—even when we’re not entirely sure what they are. The talking will help us get there, together. If you see me, I’m sure we’ll be talking about this.

  6. 5 out of 5

    Rebecca

    By contrast with her other two memoirs (especially A Homemade Life, one of my favorite books), this was an uncomfortable read. For one thing, it unpicks the fairy tale of what looked like a pretty ideal marriage and entrepreneurial partnership in Delancey. In the summer of 2015, Wizenberg was summoned for jury duty and found herself fascinated by one of the defense attorneys, a woman named Nora who wore a man’s suit and a butch haircut. The author had always considered herself straight, had neve By contrast with her other two memoirs (especially A Homemade Life, one of my favorite books), this was an uncomfortable read. For one thing, it unpicks the fairy tale of what looked like a pretty ideal marriage and entrepreneurial partnership in Delancey. In the summer of 2015, Wizenberg was summoned for jury duty and found herself fascinated by one of the defense attorneys, a woman named Nora who wore a man’s suit and a butch haircut. The author had always considered herself straight, had never been attracted to a woman before, but this crush wouldn’t go away. She and her husband Brandon tried an open marriage so that she could date Nora and he could see other people, too, but it didn’t work out. Brandon didn’t want her to fall in love with anyone else, but that was just what was happening. Wizenberg announced her coming-out and her separation from Brandon on her blog, so I was aware of all this for the last few years and via Instagram followed what came next. So I knew that her new spouse is a non-binary person named Ash Choi who was born female but had top surgery to remove their breasts. (At first I was assumed Nora was an alias for Ash, but they are actually different characters. After things broke down with Nora, a mutual friend set her up with Ash.) The other source of discomfort for me here was the explicit descriptions of her lovemaking with Nora – her initiation into lesbian sex – though she draws a veil over this with Ash. I’m not sure if the intimate details were strictly necessary, but I reminded myself that a memoir is a person’s impressions of what they’ve done and what has happened to them, molded into a meaningful shape. Wizenberg clearly felt a need to dig for the why of her transformation, and her answers range from her early knowledge of homosexuality (an uncle who died of AIDS) to her frustrations about her life with Brandon (theirs really was a happy enough marriage, and a markedly amicable divorce, but had its niggles, like any partnership). I appreciated that, ultimately, Wizenberg leaves her experience unlabeled. She acknowledges that hers is a messy story, but an honest one. While she entertains several possibilities – Was she a closeted lesbian all along? Or was she bisexual? Can sexual orientation change? – she finds out that sexual fluidity is common in women, and that all queer families are unique. An obvious comparison is with Maggie Nelson’s The Argonauts, which is a bit more profound and original. But the mourning for her marriage and the anguish over what she was doing to her daughter are strong elements alongside the examination of sexuality. The overarching metaphor of star maps is effective and reminded me of Constellations by Sinéad Gleeson. There were points in the narrative where I was afraid the author would resort to pat answers about what was ‘meant to be’ or to depicting villains versus heroic actions, but instead she treats this all just as something that happened and that all involved coped with as best they could, hopefully making something better in the end. It’s sensitively told and, while inevitably different from her other work and perhaps a bit troubling for some, well worth reading for anyone who’s been surprised where life has led. Originally published on my blog, Bookish Beck.

  7. 4 out of 5

    Nada Elshabrawy

    I got bored halfway through it but then it got really good.

  8. 5 out of 5

    Tzipora

    Really mixed feelings about this one. I think part of the issue may be what another reviewer said- when people write memoir it helps if they’re distanced enough from the time period they’re writing about to really be able to see it clearly and I kept finding that this wasn’t the case for Wizenberg. I also frankly found a few things downright offensive and while it did seem like the author grows from there I was struck by the fact those offensive things were included at all and for all the things Really mixed feelings about this one. I think part of the issue may be what another reviewer said- when people write memoir it helps if they’re distanced enough from the time period they’re writing about to really be able to see it clearly and I kept finding that this wasn’t the case for Wizenberg. I also frankly found a few things downright offensive and while it did seem like the author grows from there I was struck by the fact those offensive things were included at all and for all the things she did reflect and grow on, I never was sure she’d really internalized it or connected personally to those things. It’s one thing to discuss privilege and biases and another thing entirely if you fail to see your own bias in the process. So perhaps I’ll dive right into what deeply bothered me. Because I think this needs to be said- she has some deeply screwy views at least until she meets her current partner, about gender identity and frankly about lesbians in general. I was screaming on the inside and ready to throw my Kindle when again and again she kept talking about women who “look like men” and was so obsessed with this gender binary and could make a remark or two about butch women but failed to honor that butch women are very much women (unless they personally tell you otherwise) and they’re not trying to look or be like men. She talks about “queering gender” yet can’t get past that binary. And if that isn’t awful enough (and the first half to two-thirds if the book is heavy in this), at one point someone else refers to her as a femme and she absolutely gets wildly offended. So uh pot meet kettle. If you’re so up in arms about being called femme maybe give some thought to your own judgements, yeah? And while I was reading this- as a femme and the queerest kind of femme (something I don’t think Molly Wizenberg remotely understands. Femme lesbians “queer gender” every bit as much as butch or androgynous lesbians do, thank you very much!) I started feeling some femme invisibility rage. And I still wonder why it is Molly was so deeply offended by being called a femme. She never really explained and towards the end seemed to vaguely suggest a few things about her own gender identity but it seems to me she still hasn’t even begun to contend with that and so to bring these specific things up in the book at all kind of confuses me. Hey Molly, what’s so offensive about femmes? But oh wait- she kind of tells us. She talks about being TWENTY FOUR and meeting her first femme lesbian (again I find it hilarious- okay just offensive- that she can be so pissed about someone else labeling her but freely labels every queer woman she meets...). And how it had never occurred to her that lesbians could look like “the rest of us”. Yikes already. But oh it gets worse. She literally compares it to a Martian landing. It’s the absurd and astounding to her. Wow. I’m sorry maybe this is rude of me to say (but I think I’m allowed when you attack MY identity and when you flipping write a book look you’re some kind of authority on the queer experience...) but I am unsure I’ve ever wanted to slap an author more. And hey maybe I’d allow the shock and awe if she didn’t spend a lot of the early part of the book explaining how open her family is and discussing her gay uncle who died of AIDS and how deeply involved in AIDs work her family became after his passing. She kind of pulls this whole “I have gay friends” thing. So I just can’t grasp how she could be that flipping surprised about the wide variety of queer people who exist. And at 24?! And it’s notable she never ever compares any variety of or specific gay men to being or looking like women. Why is she so obsessed with doing so for queer women? What really sucked was that the first 30% or so I was loving this book. It really felt like a modern take on the coming out as at an older age narrative. I’ve read other books, probably more than most, about women who marry men and then discover they’re into other women. Early into this book Molly writes so openly about desire of all kinds, about growing up and crushes and sex and I totally loved it. It was making me reflect on my own life even though my story is radically different and I knew at an extremely early age that I was a lesbian and have never wavered on that- in fact my whole existence seems at odds with Molly is preaching here. She was somewhat more careful to not claim all women are sexually fluid. But given all the ways she’d been judgmental and demeaning previously just ugh. If I’m willing to read and learn from your story, Molly- I would love to meet you for coffee and tell you about my own experiences and identity. Truly. Because I’m willing to give the benefit of the doubt. So much of this is simply ignorance. Which circles ya back around to my first sentence or two- I wish she had taken more time to grow and experience and learn before writing this. What this starts off as is really promising. But Molly has so much more to learn. And it’s cool and fine that she’s attracted to who she’s attracted to. But maybe make some femme friends? I’m completely and totally serious on my own offer. Because this book isn’t totally awful and I’m giving it 2.5-3ish stars because it did give me a lot to reflect on with regards to my own identity and my own experiences with gender and sexuality and sexual orientation. It seems almost that in Molly’s fight to understand herself she tried too hard to simplify things and I really wondered if she ever did make queer women friends beyond the people she’s dated. I don’t think her experience is quite as universal as she maybe thinks or tried to make it be. Though that isn’t to say that it’s uncommon either. Mostly, I couldn’t help but think the words “baby queer” when I read much of this. I’m not sure she was in the right space yet to write this book. At least not this specific one. Maybe there was a different way to write and keep it more personal and tone down some of the judgements? Or pontifications about female sexuality in general? I don’t know. Strong start. The ending isn’t bad either and I do believe she learns a lot from her current partner but then why include all those problematic parts in the rest of the book? So I’m troubled and frustrated by parts of this. Bummed out a bit too given the strong start and how much I genuinely did appreciate the early parts. I don’t know that I can recommend this book to anyone. I worry most of all about heterosexual people who read it. Given the problematic parts and even just how much Molly has yet to learn (and that by writing the book it gives the idea she’s more of an authority than she is.) I also worry about other queer women, nonbinary, and trans folks reading it and being hurt and offended as well.

  9. 4 out of 5

    Tess Malone

    I wanted to love this book as someone who also realized she was queer later in life and as a fan of Orangette. Wizenberg's writing is thoughtful, emotionally honest, and poetic as ever. But though this is billed as a queer memoir, it's really one about divorce that interrogates queerness through a very heteronormative lens. I kept waiting for the queer joy and the expansiveness that coming out can bring, but mostly Wizenberg is mired in the misery of dissolving her marriage and figuring out wher I wanted to love this book as someone who also realized she was queer later in life and as a fan of Orangette. Wizenberg's writing is thoughtful, emotionally honest, and poetic as ever. But though this is billed as a queer memoir, it's really one about divorce that interrogates queerness through a very heteronormative lens. I kept waiting for the queer joy and the expansiveness that coming out can bring, but mostly Wizenberg is mired in the misery of dissolving her marriage and figuring out where her identity fits into her sense of self. It grew heavy to read and the constellation metaphor heavy handed.

  10. 5 out of 5

    Elise Cripe

    I read this in a day. I love a good memoir. Molly writes so beautifully.

  11. 4 out of 5

    Sheena

    The Fixed Stars is about a woman struggling with her identity and sexual orientation. She is married and has a child but realizes something in her has changed. I found it hard to connect with the writing, and it was a little boring at times. I felt there were some unnecessary details about her marriage and the restaurant so I did skim towards the middle to the end of it. I probably am not the target audience for this book. 2.5 rating overall. Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for the advan The Fixed Stars is about a woman struggling with her identity and sexual orientation. She is married and has a child but realizes something in her has changed. I found it hard to connect with the writing, and it was a little boring at times. I felt there were some unnecessary details about her marriage and the restaurant so I did skim towards the middle to the end of it. I probably am not the target audience for this book. 2.5 rating overall. Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for the advanced copy!

  12. 4 out of 5

    Nursebookie

    When Molly Wizenberg was 36, she discovered something new about herself - an intense, undeniable desire to love and be loved by another woman after a lifetime of relationships with men. Her marriage of almost ten years crumble as she explores this new discovery of who she really is. I thought this was a very powerful memoir. The writing was beautiful, poignant, easy to read and extremely thoughtful as she describes her relationships and family life. With honesty, candor and strength she gave it When Molly Wizenberg was 36, she discovered something new about herself - an intense, undeniable desire to love and be loved by another woman after a lifetime of relationships with men. Her marriage of almost ten years crumble as she explores this new discovery of who she really is. I thought this was a very powerful memoir. The writing was beautiful, poignant, easy to read and extremely thoughtful as she describes her relationships and family life. With honesty, candor and strength she gave it all in this beautifully intimate and revealing memoir. I really enjoyed this! The narration by Erin Malin was lovely and I enjoyed listening to her tell Wizenberg’s story.

  13. 5 out of 5

    Jenny (Reading Envy)

    On the one hand, I think Molly's story is very relatable, a woman who after marriage and a child realizes she is attracted to other women and can't just let it go. I think this happens to a lot of people, and it's nice to have a narrative to find resonance in. On the other hand, I did not think the writing was that spectacular (there are some beautifully written moments - all where she is quoting other people like Maggie Nelson or Cheryl Strayed or Alison Bechdel,) the narrator (herself) is impo On the one hand, I think Molly's story is very relatable, a woman who after marriage and a child realizes she is attracted to other women and can't just let it go. I think this happens to a lot of people, and it's nice to have a narrative to find resonance in. On the other hand, I did not think the writing was that spectacular (there are some beautifully written moments - all where she is quoting other people like Maggie Nelson or Cheryl Strayed or Alison Bechdel,) the narrator (herself) is impossibly naive about queer culture to the extent that her first forays into new relationships are excruciatingly painful (she spends a lot of time reading about open marriage but no time about the topic that matters more to her?), and there are these weird moments where she declares her privilege in the middle of talking about something else (it's important to recognize privilege, but I actually suspect the reason her divorce was so easy had nothing to do with privilege and everything to do with neither party really being into it....) So it depends on why you want to read the book. One of these days, I will actually get to the first of her memoirs, which I've had on Kindle for years - A Homemade Life: Stories and Recipes from My Kitchen Table.

  14. 4 out of 5

    Bookphenomena (Micky)

    Don’t let that cover confuse you. To me, the cover conjures chick lit or romance, but this is non-fiction, a memoir. This memoir tackled interesting themes – understanding sexual orientation, gender and the potential for people to change in these respects as they grow and age. The author, Molly was in her 30s, married and a mother, when she went from feeling 100% straight to a different position. This memoir was the unravelling of the status quo of her life and her process of working out who she Don’t let that cover confuse you. To me, the cover conjures chick lit or romance, but this is non-fiction, a memoir. This memoir tackled interesting themes – understanding sexual orientation, gender and the potential for people to change in these respects as they grow and age. The author, Molly was in her 30s, married and a mother, when she went from feeling 100% straight to a different position. This memoir was the unravelling of the status quo of her life and her process of working out who she was as a person, a woman, as a sexual being. Molly’s journey was incredibly interesting as was her self examination and discovery. However, the narrative style wasn’t particularly one that appealed to me. This story was told from the present time, then it would jump back into the past with lengthy descriptive periods that just lost my interest. Added to that, the timeline continually jumped back and forth in time but not staying with consistent time periods, if that makes sense. I found that approach jarring and confusing. I also wasn’t particuarly interested in her childhood or college years but I get that they had some foundational relevance. I liked how the author used other texts and quotes to support her position, how she felt and that her experience was one that others had trodden. I do think it was a brave, exposing memoir. The narrator is one known to me and not a narrator I favour, so I guess that might have slightly affected my listening experience too. Overall, I think this is the kind of memoir that will appeal to those interested in a personal lgbtqia+ experience and also those trying to find answers to their own questioning. I generally found this anthropologically engaging and I think many others would too. Thank you to Libro FM for the #gifted advanced listening copy. This review can be found on A Take From Two Cities Blog.

  15. 5 out of 5

    Libby

    2,5 stars; I received an ARC of this book from net galley I read Orangette for years; Molly’s short but tender blog posts,photos shot on strange angles or with odd focus, simple home cooking recipes. It’s one of those things where you don’t know the writer, but you’ve read through a decade of blog archives and double-tapped a bunch of instagram posts and they feel like at least a friend of a friend. So reading this memoir felt a little strange, almost intrusive. And honestly, not that great. I th 2,5 stars; I received an ARC of this book from net galley I read Orangette for years; Molly’s short but tender blog posts,photos shot on strange angles or with odd focus, simple home cooking recipes. It’s one of those things where you don’t know the writer, but you’ve read through a decade of blog archives and double-tapped a bunch of instagram posts and they feel like at least a friend of a friend. So reading this memoir felt a little strange, almost intrusive. And honestly, not that great. I think it could have been better suited to a long article, or maybe just waiting five more years to write. Blog posts can be written in the midst of something but memoirs, not so much. It just feels a bit half-finished. Even the references throughout feel almost like she skimmed through the works used in The Argonauts. And the people she writes about aren’t characters, they’re people who are still in her life right now. Which is obviously a difficulty of memoir, but it feels like she only wanted to write good and kind things about everyone, because they still have relationships that would be jeopardised by harsh words in a memoir. Maybe it’s time to try fiction; as much as it might be a lightly fictionalised version of her life, at least it would allow people to be complicated characters. I feel bad giving this a bad review. I think Molly’s a good writer! I just don’t think this is a good book. Reread the Orangette archives instead!

  16. 5 out of 5

    Larisa

    This book really felt like it was written from a defensive posture. I am a queer woman and an academic, and I love Maggie Nelson and Sarah Manguso as much as the next person (actually MUCH MORE but not the point), but it felt like she was quoting from these texts so she could show she'd done her homework. The way she actually talked about other queer people, particularly in sexual contexts, felt alienating. From the book jacket, I thought I would love and relate to parts of this narrative, but I This book really felt like it was written from a defensive posture. I am a queer woman and an academic, and I love Maggie Nelson and Sarah Manguso as much as the next person (actually MUCH MORE but not the point), but it felt like she was quoting from these texts so she could show she'd done her homework. The way she actually talked about other queer people, particularly in sexual contexts, felt alienating. From the book jacket, I thought I would love and relate to parts of this narrative, but I wound up feeling like the only people who would benefit from reading this are straight.

  17. 5 out of 5

    Katie Stroble

    While perusing goodreads reviews of this book before I started it, I found a review that compared this book to a friend showing up to your house with a bottle of whisky, ready to spill all the dirt on how and why her marriage ended. And in a way, I completely agree. Molly writes in a way that is totally candid, and feels as though I'm listening to my best friend fill me in on her life and her emotions. It felt deeply personal and raw and trusting - Molly held nothing back, not the good, not the While perusing goodreads reviews of this book before I started it, I found a review that compared this book to a friend showing up to your house with a bottle of whisky, ready to spill all the dirt on how and why her marriage ended. And in a way, I completely agree. Molly writes in a way that is totally candid, and feels as though I'm listening to my best friend fill me in on her life and her emotions. It felt deeply personal and raw and trusting - Molly held nothing back, not the good, not the bad, and definitely not the ugly. And for that I appreciated her. But at the same time, that review of the book does it a disservice, because this was so much more than a steamy tell all brimming with salacious and gossipy details. It was an exploration of gender and sex and sexuality and how we express these things and what they mean, and how they differ from person to person. It was filled with snippets from writers who have written about these topics and from scientists who have studied it, And it opened up my eyes to the fluidity of feminine sexuality and how, regardless of how you "categorize" yourself, it is a deeply personal endeavor and there are no wrong answers.

  18. 4 out of 5

    Cindy H.

    Oh God, how do I rate / review this memoir? Molly’s writing is beautiful. Soulful and raw, bold and honest but I’m not sure necessary. This book felt like Molly needed to unburden her heavy load, to ease her conscience, maybe tell her “side” of the story. I think Molly is a loving mother, but I question how her daughter June will receive this book in the coming years. Not my favorite memoir even though I LOVED her first book A Homemade Life. 4 stars for writing 2.5 content #MoreMehThanYeah Narra Oh God, how do I rate / review this memoir? Molly’s writing is beautiful. Soulful and raw, bold and honest but I’m not sure necessary. This book felt like Molly needed to unburden her heavy load, to ease her conscience, maybe tell her “side” of the story. I think Molly is a loving mother, but I question how her daughter June will receive this book in the coming years. Not my favorite memoir even though I LOVED her first book A Homemade Life. 4 stars for writing 2.5 content #MoreMehThanYeah Narration was very good 🎧

  19. 4 out of 5

    Rachael

    You and a friend that you haven’t seen in a while get together to discuss how life has changed since you last saw each other. You listen intently to her story, unable to break from her words. You listen to your friend confess her most personal discretions, confuse her sexual orientation, change her identity, shatter her marriage, challenge the restrictions of love and attempt to keep her daughter neutral and aloof. You do nothing but listen. This was how my day seemed to unfold reading cover to co You and a friend that you haven’t seen in a while get together to discuss how life has changed since you last saw each other. You listen intently to her story, unable to break from her words. You listen to your friend confess her most personal discretions, confuse her sexual orientation, change her identity, shatter her marriage, challenge the restrictions of love and attempt to keep her daughter neutral and aloof. You do nothing but listen. This was how my day seemed to unfold reading cover to cover of The Fixed Stars. It was mesmerizing, absorbing and thoughtful. It needed a bottle of wine.

  20. 4 out of 5

    EB Fitzsimons

    One doesn't need to be familiar with Wizenberg's older memoirs to be both crushed and elated by her newest, in which she recounts how she fell in love with a woman after ten years of marriage to a man. Her thoughtful reflections on the fluidity of gender, love, sexuality, motherhood, and self shows how successfully she's transitioned to the role of author and reminds me how important bloggers are: they chronicle ordinary stories in extraordinary ways and show us that our own lives, too, are beau One doesn't need to be familiar with Wizenberg's older memoirs to be both crushed and elated by her newest, in which she recounts how she fell in love with a woman after ten years of marriage to a man. Her thoughtful reflections on the fluidity of gender, love, sexuality, motherhood, and self shows how successfully she's transitioned to the role of author and reminds me how important bloggers are: they chronicle ordinary stories in extraordinary ways and show us that our own lives, too, are beautiful and worth celebrating.

  21. 5 out of 5

    Jess

    If you enjoy Dani Shapiro's memoirs, then this book is for you! I do not, so I am definitely not the target audience. I had no idea that Wizenberg has written two previous memoirs. If I had known that, I likely would not have read this one. That said, I went into this reading experience assuming the book would be interesting since the blurb looked so compelling. I tried to enjoy the book and respect Wizenberg's position. I did not succeed. Memoir is an inherently self-indulgent form. When done we If you enjoy Dani Shapiro's memoirs, then this book is for you! I do not, so I am definitely not the target audience. I had no idea that Wizenberg has written two previous memoirs. If I had known that, I likely would not have read this one. That said, I went into this reading experience assuming the book would be interesting since the blurb looked so compelling. I tried to enjoy the book and respect Wizenberg's position. I did not succeed. Memoir is an inherently self-indulgent form. When done well, memoir can speak to wider themes and provide powerful personalization of larger social narratives. Sadly, The Fixed Stars is little more than a navel-gazing diatribe for someone to whom many in the queer community cannot relate: a financially secure, cisgender white woman with access to professional therapy and a great deal of support from affirming family and friends. Full disclosure: I am openly trans and use they/them pronouns. I was really frustrated by Wizenberg's language. Even as she dates a non-binary person, Wizenberg still refers to Ash as a woman. Not to mention the really troubling "but I like your breasts" rhetoric when Ash opens up about top surgery. It is not for me to say whether Ash is comfortable or not with those terms. Why the term person was not used, I do not know?! Wizenberg's language does reinforce for me how stringently she views men and women. This book drips with essentialism even as she attempts to write about fluidity. There were so many examples of "men do this, women do that" logic which is outdated at best and ignorant at worst. Wizenberg writes within a binary framework of sex, gender, sexuality, and identity throughout the book. At times, I really thought I was reading a 1970s second-wave feminist pamphlet. The current intersectional inclusive feminism that welcomes fluidity and acknowledges the many different ways a person can face oppression is clearly not a framework she employs. Wizenberg mentions her privilege as though it is a crutch, something to be endured rather than acknowledged with authenticity. Every time she tried to speak about her privilege I cringed because it just seemed to be such a hollow statement. Wizenberg makes sweeping generalizations about what the queer community is and is not and seems to place herself as an authority figure even though she is newly exploring her position outside of a heterosexual norm. Ultimately, The Fixed Stars reads like a long list of complaints. I cannot recommend this book and I will not be reading more from this author.

  22. 5 out of 5

    Mehrsa

    I was so frustrated and annoyed at the author reading her memoir. At times, it was just too much info and unprocessed thoughts and then at other times, it felt like therapy psychobabble. I left the book thinking that perhaps she should have done some more thinking and therapy before writing a memoir. I felt like I ended the story more confused than when it began.

  23. 5 out of 5

    Katharine

    Having not read either of Wizenberg's previous two memoirs, I went into this not knowing much. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to know her and how she came to be who she is today. And as white, straight, cisgender woman, I also found everything she learned and all the research she shared about gender and sexuality very informative and eye opening. She shared her story with honest self reflection and I admire the way she's worked so hard to create a life that feels true to herself, not matter how ha Having not read either of Wizenberg's previous two memoirs, I went into this not knowing much. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to know her and how she came to be who she is today. And as white, straight, cisgender woman, I also found everything she learned and all the research she shared about gender and sexuality very informative and eye opening. She shared her story with honest self reflection and I admire the way she's worked so hard to create a life that feels true to herself, not matter how hard or different that may be from what she thought it would look like. Thank you to Abrams for providing me with a free review copy. All opinions are my own.

  24. 5 out of 5

    Stefanie Onieal

    Wow, wow, wow. Memoir is my favorite genre and this is one of the best I’ve ever read. Purchasing it for my kindle so I can highlight all the quotes. Absolutely stunning.

  25. 4 out of 5

    Katie

    Although I have not read Molly's previous works, I have been an avid listener of the podcast, Spilled Milk, which she hosts with her good friend, Matthew Amster-Burton. After listening to over 400 episodes of the two of them banter about food, reminisce about their childhoods, and share snippets of their current lives, they feel like old friends to me. Although they don't go into great detail about their personal lives, I did pick up on the fact that Molly was no longer with her husband and ofte Although I have not read Molly's previous works, I have been an avid listener of the podcast, Spilled Milk, which she hosts with her good friend, Matthew Amster-Burton. After listening to over 400 episodes of the two of them banter about food, reminisce about their childhoods, and share snippets of their current lives, they feel like old friends to me. Although they don't go into great detail about their personal lives, I did pick up on the fact that Molly was no longer with her husband and often mentioned her partner Ash. I was extremely curious about how that came about, and when I heard about this book, I added it to my wishlist immediately. As eloquent and witty Molly is on her podcast, her writing style is even more impressive, both exquisite and beautifully paced. Her descriptions and dialogue are evocative, bringing me right into the moment with her. Molly details the story of her marriage; the love, care, and mutual respect they had for one another, along with the complexities that can bring relationships to an end. Even when all the intentions are good, the outcome does not always come about the way you expect it to. She also divulges the struggles she had with becoming a mother, how big of a learning curve it is, how lonely it is, and how it changes everything. Reading this book was like having a heart to heart talk with an old friend. Molly speaks about her marriage with honesty and candor, revealing doubts that many have about their spouses but few are willing to admit. In her struggle to examine her relationship with her husband and her daughter, her identity, and her sexuality, she grapples with finding out who she truly is at a later stage of her life, a time at which she is supposed to have figured herself out already. Molly references quotes from writers and books often; passages that she feels accurately represent the feelings she is experiencing. Recognizing some of these authors and works very much appealed to my bookish side and brought a sense of familiarity to this intimate and revealing memoir.

  26. 5 out of 5

    Kelso

    Once in a while - a long while - a book comes along and heals you, tells you you're not alone, a portable therapist for days you need it. Molly's memoir about complexities - in sexuality, identity, relationships, marriage, and parenting - is the best memoir I've read. Molly's story is a night light guiding me through a dark and scary world of latent sexual identity. A mirror that reflects my same experiences and feelings back at me. (I would whisper a soft "yes" while highlighting a passage every Once in a while - a long while - a book comes along and heals you, tells you you're not alone, a portable therapist for days you need it. Molly's memoir about complexities - in sexuality, identity, relationships, marriage, and parenting - is the best memoir I've read. Molly's story is a night light guiding me through a dark and scary world of latent sexual identity. A mirror that reflects my same experiences and feelings back at me. (I would whisper a soft "yes" while highlighting a passage every time I read something profound, the books is now 75% green marker). A sermon to let me know that I am not alone and there are stories like this and people like me out there. Wow. Wow. What a great honor to have read this book. Thank you for letting me know my story is not singular. That there are other women out there who have been through this experience. Thank you for telling our story. TL;DR - I am gagged and I can't wait to proselytize the fuck out of this memoir come May 2020. _____________________________________ Molly has left me at a loss for words, which is some feat considering all I do is chatter. Reading this memoir was like finding your long lost sibling. Like coming home. Like Molly whispering into my head, "you're not alone in this story." I would answer back to the ARC, "Yes. Yes. Yes." while highlighting pages and pages of feelings that reflected exact points in my life when this situation was happening to me. I just. This book is an answer to a question my soul felt for years and years. A necessary memoir. Expertly written. Precise. Wow. Thank you, Molly, for telling my story. Our stories. Thank you for letting me know me, and other women out there are not alone in this. Thank you.

  27. 4 out of 5

    Erica Bauermeister

    In THE FIXED STARS Molly Wizenberg tackles the ever-shifting issues of marriage, motherhood, and sexual orientation with the same compassion and unflinching honesty that have become the hallmarks of her writing. In every book, she has made the everyday extraordinary, and brought depth and complexity to the bigger questions in life. THE FIXED STARS carries on this tradition and takes it to a whole new level. A beautiful read.

  28. 5 out of 5

    Elizabeth

    earnest & cerebral memoir about grappling with one's sexuality after being married for ten years. this is a beautifully written, deeply researched book. the notes/bibliography section blew me away; molly wizenberg put in the work. she interweaves various bits of information about gender & sexuality throughout her narrative. she also did the emotional work & lays her life bare. The Fixed Stars is an interesting contrast to glennon doyle's Untamed. the ways both women tackle coming to terms with t earnest & cerebral memoir about grappling with one's sexuality after being married for ten years. this is a beautifully written, deeply researched book. the notes/bibliography section blew me away; molly wizenberg put in the work. she interweaves various bits of information about gender & sexuality throughout her narrative. she also did the emotional work & lays her life bare. The Fixed Stars is an interesting contrast to glennon doyle's Untamed. the ways both women tackle coming to terms with their feelings, the complicated logistics of ending a marriage, & the guilt they experience as mothers (while different) still illustrate the strength it takes to change one's identity but remain committed to children & on good terms with exes. last, i appreciated that molly addressed sexual fluidity in great detail here. it's a thing. (view spoiler)[ duh. (hide spoiler)] i've known many women who after being married to men find that gender is no longer a deal breaker & no one cares. (view spoiler)[b/c it doesn't fucking matter. (hide spoiler)]

  29. 4 out of 5

    Nikki

    Great book about how a middle-aged, married woman discovers her queerness and navigates through the journey. It was interesting to read how her and her ex-husband dealt with this in particular. This was fairly easy to go through, I liked how she related astronomy with her topics and how there's a lot of quotes and citations from other works too! It's nice to see more representation of queer people finding their identity and that it's not limited to the stereotypical closeted teen. To ignore my Great book about how a middle-aged, married woman discovers her queerness and navigates through the journey. It was interesting to read how her and her ex-husband dealt with this in particular. This was fairly easy to go through, I liked how she related astronomy with her topics and how there's a lot of quotes and citations from other works too! It's nice to see more representation of queer people finding their identity and that it's not limited to the stereotypical closeted teen. To ignore my inconsistencies, my pliancy, my “errors,” would be a mistake, because at their center is me.

  30. 5 out of 5

    Kristen

    I have followed Molly Wizenberg for more than a decade. I absolutely loved A Homemade Life and her reflections on mothering. I was an avid reader of her blog and adore her Instagram feed as a substitute for that blog. I’ve always found her insightful. But even though I totally stan for her work, I was not prepared for this reading experience. This book is so wise and so gentle I feel physically altered by it. She lays bare her own process of self discovery yet I felt her story in my bones. If I I have followed Molly Wizenberg for more than a decade. I absolutely loved A Homemade Life and her reflections on mothering. I was an avid reader of her blog and adore her Instagram feed as a substitute for that blog. I’ve always found her insightful. But even though I totally stan for her work, I was not prepared for this reading experience. This book is so wise and so gentle I feel physically altered by it. She lays bare her own process of self discovery yet I felt her story in my bones. If I was still teaching a Women’s Studies class, this would be on the reading list.

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