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Goalie [goh-lee] noun a player in the goal whose duty is to prevent the ball from entering or crossing it See Santos and Mariana DeGuajarado As goalie of the Texas Mutiny, Santos is damn good at protecting that net. But he never bothered to protect his marriage. Letting the fame and notoriety go to his head, he lost the things he loved the most… his wife and kids. Now Goalie [goh-lee] noun a player in the goal whose duty is to prevent the ball from entering or crossing it See Santos and Mariana DeGuajarado As goalie of the Texas Mutiny, Santos is damn good at protecting that net. But he never bothered to protect his marriage. Letting the fame and notoriety go to his head, he lost the things he loved the most… his wife and kids. Now he has one shot to make it right before losing at this relationship game and he’s determined not to miss this time. Mariana has been scarred so deeply by Santos’s betrayals, she will carry the wounds forever. After almost ten years of marriage though, she knows him well, and she knows he won’t let go without a fight. Still, she refuses to be a push over. Because love is never enough…


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Goalie [goh-lee] noun a player in the goal whose duty is to prevent the ball from entering or crossing it See Santos and Mariana DeGuajarado As goalie of the Texas Mutiny, Santos is damn good at protecting that net. But he never bothered to protect his marriage. Letting the fame and notoriety go to his head, he lost the things he loved the most… his wife and kids. Now Goalie [goh-lee] noun a player in the goal whose duty is to prevent the ball from entering or crossing it See Santos and Mariana DeGuajarado As goalie of the Texas Mutiny, Santos is damn good at protecting that net. But he never bothered to protect his marriage. Letting the fame and notoriety go to his head, he lost the things he loved the most… his wife and kids. Now he has one shot to make it right before losing at this relationship game and he’s determined not to miss this time. Mariana has been scarred so deeply by Santos’s betrayals, she will carry the wounds forever. After almost ten years of marriage though, she knows him well, and she knows he won’t let go without a fight. Still, she refuses to be a push over. Because love is never enough…

30 review for Goalie

  1. 5 out of 5

    Alex ♈

    There will be no rating. It was the most raw and honest book about infidelity I ever read. But even despite good writing and risky plot any high rating will be against my morals. Before reading this book, after reading this book and till the end of my life I said, say and will say: NOTHING justifies cheating! Nothing excuses cheating and there is no 2nd chance for a cheater! I despise cheating, I deeply abhor cheaters; but I’m adult enough to understand that the life is not black and white – it’s grey There will be no rating. It was the most raw and honest book about infidelity I ever read. But even despite good writing and risky plot any high rating will be against my morals. Before reading this book, after reading this book and till the end of my life I said, say and will say: NOTHING justifies cheating! Nothing excuses cheating and there is no 2nd chance for a cheater! I despise cheating, I deeply abhor cheaters; but I’m adult enough to understand that the life is not black and white – it’s grey. Avoidance is not a solution. Not for me. So sometimes I step out of my comfort zone and face the issues I disrespect and even fear. I read the blurb and I knew that the main topic was infidelity, but I never expect the extent of his cheating and the extent of her humiliation. He cheated on her from the “first” day, through dating and through marriage; through 3 pregnancies and through all the time she unconditionally loved and supported him. Since I never saw this book as a romance but as a real life story I wasn’t surprised that he didn’t stop having sex with OWs even after his wife left him; bj on the day of divorce was the last straw. The author tried to describe him as a good father, but in my world the good father is not only the person who cares for his children and provides them, but also a man who respects their mother. The extent of his disrespect was endless. The male character (sorry, I even can’t call him a hero) doesn’t deserve hate. The opposite of love is not hate, hate is still a feeling. The opposite of love is neglect, complete disdain. It’s hard for me to write about the heroine. I liked and pitied her. I didn’t support all her decisions, but I tried to understand her. I wanted to shake and to hug her, and even if I don’t agree with her final decision I can’t dislike her. She chose a life of inner fight and regret, she chose a life of daily fear and mistrust, but she made her choice and I hope she (and the kids) won’t suffer much. I don’t believe in any possibility of HEA for this couple, and I don’t believe in his future fidelity. (Sorry, but I didn’t buy his supposed addiction as an excuse for his regular and unhesitant cheating). But again! I clearly understand that not everyone is like me. People have and always will have various opinions and see the same situation differently. I don’t judge. I live and learn. I try to understand and see the issue from a different angle. I don’t regret reading this book. It was a painful but revealing journey. But nevertheless I said, say and will say: NOTHING justifies cheating! Nothing excuses cheating and there is no 2nd chance for a cheater.

  2. 5 out of 5

    Fre06 Begum

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. Get ready for a rant everyone!! So basically this guy was with heroine for over ten years and he cheated throughout all of them! We have lovely image of him sexing a groupie in the beginning that made me literally seethe with anger and disgust. I won't go into too much about this book but I will say that I felt the author using the storyline of him being a near sex addict felt like an excuse for them to wind up together again. In no way did he redeem himself he said he loved his wife and his thre Get ready for a rant everyone!! So basically this guy was with heroine for over ten years and he cheated throughout all of them! We have lovely image of him sexing a groupie in the beginning that made me literally seethe with anger and disgust. I won't go into too much about this book but I will say that I felt the author using the storyline of him being a near sex addict felt like an excuse for them to wind up together again. In no way did he redeem himself he said he loved his wife and his three kids but that didn't stop him from screwing around for over ten years and disrespecting them by his serial cheating. Even when they separate he couldn't keep it in his pants knowing that his cheating was the reason his wife kicked him out, we have another lovely scene where he gets a blowjob on the day of his divorce. Great way to show his guilt and remorse right?! I also hated the fact that author made it known later that heroine always knew deep inside that he was cheating but still went on with the marriage and having three kids with this nasty scumbag. What does that say about her? Don't get me wrong I liked the heroine she was a great wife and mum but as a woman she was weak. Why do authors feel the need to make the female leads such virtuous forgiving characters? I don't think it makes a betrayed woman to be horrible just because she can't forgive or take back a cheater, in fact in my opinion it makes her bloody human and true for a lot of women out there who would feel the same! I can't believe she forgave him and one of the main ow who had been his regular groupie (apparently this ow is the main female lead in book 2 and there scenes with her and the main guy from this book) I was just so repulsed at how goody goody the author made this female lead. I 100% believe he will cheat again because temptation is everywhere as was witnessed by him changing career and still having lustful thoughts about another teacher training with him who gave him the come on towards the end. He resisted her but I won't believe that he won't succumb to future advances by ow down the road. There was no satisfactory conclusion at the end just the ending saying they will always be in therapy...meaning cheating is still very realistic and as the guy was so weak I believe that's inevitable!

  3. 4 out of 5

    ♡tanaz♡

    what self-respecting woman takes back their husband after they've cheated on them for over a decade????? what self-respecting woman takes back their husband after they've cheated on them for over a decade?????

  4. 4 out of 5

    boogenhagen

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. Honestly I got hammered over the head with a supposed 'sex addiction' - and maybe it is or maybe it isn't. But honestly, as with any disease, you need to do something to treat it - and here is where I am not feeling it. The H does absolutely nothing about it until he has to, and even then he is still hooking up with OW and frankly - forgiveness is one thing, taking such miserable moral, ethical and narcissistic failure back is entirely another. The h claims she takes him back cause he was her be Honestly I got hammered over the head with a supposed 'sex addiction' - and maybe it is or maybe it isn't. But honestly, as with any disease, you need to do something to treat it - and here is where I am not feeling it. The H does absolutely nothing about it until he has to, and even then he is still hooking up with OW and frankly - forgiveness is one thing, taking such miserable moral, ethical and narcissistic failure back is entirely another. The h claims she takes him back cause he was her best friend and confidant, a good father and he was getting help for his issues. I am still wondering what drugs she was taking cause up until the divorce, the guy was never around to be much of anything - or if he was, the author sure did not show it. I don't think ten minutes of playing with your kids in between your games and your groupy banging makes you a good father. What surprises me is the lack of awareness this h has about just how alone she really has been and continues to be even after the supposed reconciliation. It is still and always will be all about him, she and her needs are only an afterthought and it is sad that in order to feel self confident, she has to feel maternal and be the caretaker in order to be in a romantic relationship. But it does shed a lot of light on why she stays with him. I did not buy it, I felt sorry for a woman who is so emotionally dependent that she is willing to treat an adult male like a child and ride herd on him for the rest of his life - cause that is what this is going to turn into. She is going to have to check up on him all the time, and frankly that is just waay too exhausting to have to parent your kids and your hubby too for forever. I did not like this one, mainly cause it read as a text book psych study of a mythical 'sex addiction' diagnosis and not a real relationship.

  5. 5 out of 5

    GimmeAllTheWerdssss

    2.5 I'm not sure how to feel stars but I'm TOTALLY rounding down because it's not worth rounding up! First let me say that cheating is not my thing. Typically I avoid books that involve cheating like the plague. Therefore the only excuse I can give for reading this is that I'm a masochist. I knew going in that the heart was not only a cheater but a cheating SOB who had been doing it for years. I'm putting my thought under spoiler so I don't ruin it for anyone else... (view spoiler)[ As I said abov 2.5 I'm not sure how to feel stars but I'm TOTALLY rounding down because it's not worth rounding up! First let me say that cheating is not my thing. Typically I avoid books that involve cheating like the plague. Therefore the only excuse I can give for reading this is that I'm a masochist. I knew going in that the heart was not only a cheater but a cheating SOB who had been doing it for years. I'm putting my thought under spoiler so I don't ruin it for anyone else... (view spoiler)[ As I said above I'm not sure how I feel about this book. I knew what I was getting into and went into it with eyes wide open. I expected an asshole and in someways I got exactly that. However I was not expecting a feeling asshole. However, him having feelings in no way makes him less of an asshole. The story starts out with the h confronting a former cleat chaser who had slept with the H. In the OWs defense she owned up to it and was very remorseful - the OW was the heroine in a prior book who was now in a relationship with one of the players. The next scene is the H balls deep in OW. He cleans up goes home and passes out on the couch. It isn't until the following morning that he realizes something's wrong - the H has taken the kids, moved out, and tells him she's filing for divorce. Props for her however, the H is confused as to why? To him he never loved the OW so it was just sex and him coming down from the adrenaline high. He's pissed at her and himself because he knows what he did. At that point he continually talked about how the h was the love of his life and how he he ruined it all . Now at this point I would expect him to change and start attempting to win the heroine back...did that happen nope! He's remorseful but still ends up screwing OW. Before the divorce settlement can be reached the H conveniences the h to try couples therapy as he claims to still love her. They go to therapy and we find out that at NO POINT in their relationship has the H been faithful. They yell, scream, have it out but continue with therapy. The last night there they have sex because the h misses her husband and the next day they're acting like a happy couple. I was ready to be pissed off because after all the cheating I felt like the h was just rolling over and forgiving the H. However, my love for the h grew when she told the H it was just goodbye sex and she was going through with the divorce because despite him being sorry she can't trust him. Now the H is pissed because he thought him acknowledging he'd done wrong was enough. They reach an agreement and the judge approves....they're divorced. Next scene is the H getting a blow job. Again...he feels remorseful but just can't keep it in his pants. However, after a short discussion with the same prior f buddy that confirmed his cheating to his then wife he decides that he's tired of the life he's been living, missed his wife and kids, and wants to be better. He starts therapy where he discovers that he probably has a situational sex addiction. I guess this is where the author wanted me to realize that he had a problem and that due to said problem he should be forgiven. To me though...it felt like a cop out. It was stated that even though he had the problem he still made the choice to cheat and it didn't excuse his choice BUT it did aid in him making them. I just didn't buy it. It wasn't justification for his actions but I think the author wanted you to see it that way. To the Hs credit he realizes that the only way to get the h and his family back is for him to make some major changes and to keep himself out of the situations that allow him to cheat. He does make an effort and I do applaud him for that HOWEVER it fell short because even after being heartbroken after his wife filing for divorce and then them getting divorced he still didn't keep his dick in his pants. It wasn't enough for me. Fast forward the h has forgiven the H and they start a courting relationship so she can learn to trust him again. The BAM! The books over...no epilogue to let me know if it all worked out. We just know that 6 months later they're living together but sleeping in separate bedrooms, have NOT been physical, and are working on their relationship. That's it... So to sum it all up as I said before I'm not sure how I should feel about this book. At times like both liked and hated both the H and h - the H more. I wanted to see the H redeem himself and I only feel that he partly did that. I wanted to say the H was a strong character but I can't say that I felt like that about her 75% of the time because I didn't. So it wasn't a win but it wasn't a total loss either. It just is what it is. Going forward though I don't think I would read this author again as she's just not for me. To those who love cheating and reformed character books this author is probably for you. I'm not one of those though... (view spoiler)[ (hide spoiler)] (hide spoiler)]

  6. 4 out of 5

    Rejane

    https://www.goodreads.com/review/show... I'm still wondering why cheating is so "ON" lately and I still can't think of it as natural and acceptable. I might have a psychological problem or I'm a moral snob. Either way, those authors are making me doubt myself and my thoughts and believes. I actually like respect and honesty. Yep, I might be sick. NOPE Ewwwwwww https://www.goodreads.com/review/show... https://www.goodreads.com/review/show... I'm still wondering why cheating is so "ON" lately and I still can't think of it as natural and acceptable. I might have a psychological problem or I'm a moral snob. Either way, those authors are making me doubt myself and my thoughts and believes. I actually like respect and honesty. Yep, I might be sick. NOPE Ewwwwwww https://www.goodreads.com/review/show...

  7. 4 out of 5

    Chem&Comp

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. WTF is this, where did the authors mind go. H and h are married for 10 years and H has been cheating on her ALL THOSE TIME. The h didn't even have a respect for herself and take back the cheater at the end after 10 years of marriage plus the years of dating. His tears will never ever convince me that he love his wife, my brain will explode at every angle if i think about it. Every time he told her "I love you" is just not believable especially the readers has a opening chapter of him humming to org WTF is this, where did the authors mind go. H and h are married for 10 years and H has been cheating on her ALL THOSE TIME. The h didn't even have a respect for herself and take back the cheater at the end after 10 years of marriage plus the years of dating. His tears will never ever convince me that he love his wife, my brain will explode at every angle if i think about it. Every time he told her "I love you" is just not believable especially the readers has a opening chapter of him humming to orgasm with fucking an OW. Not only that he claims to be remorseful,hates himself for cheating on h but up until the divorce which is about 50% +, he fucks OW. We have his internal monologue of jealousy when he catch h from her date (which is a fucking joke). He said that during their separation he is NOT CELIBATE!!!where did author mind go, is she even a married? Did she think it romantic to have her husband talks to a person whose penis was inside her like friends? Like what she did with Mari and Tiffany. WTH, our h talks with the woman who at some many times has been naked and has been rut by her husband like 70% in the book. This author will never grace my kindle. i don't know how she find cheating so romantic and her mom is weird, not ALL couples in the WORLD get a therapist when marriage fell apart to get even near accurate statistics, some divorced. And to those who remained? will i guess they don't respect themselves enough or they don't have a work to pay everything or they thought that nobody will have them because they old, anyways idk, im only 27yo and never have been cheated but FUCK for this "romantic" story. Her mom should have told her that there are realities that are too hard to be written as Romantic and be overlooked, cheating for 10 years????? TEN YEARS?? CHEATING???? YEARS 10??? TECHNGA??? 1Y AEOSR??? PLUS THE YEARS WHEN THEY WERE DATING??? What's with the H SANTOS name, guess He is a Latino, and so now maybe her mom client are mostly Latino and based on internet surveys they are the most cheating husband?? -This is an angry review because i don't read fiction books like reading a Haiku, which is no emotion involved-

  8. 4 out of 5

    Katerina

    So I read this book to get out of my comfort zone. And nothing makes me more upset than reading a book featuring infidelity. No taboo/rape/assault affects my reading experience the same way. He did not deserve her. Personally, I believe he should have gotten a taste of his own medicine, because fidelity never existed for him - there was no respect for her. I can't even believe she touched him after she found out. That she resigned herself to being alone for the rest of her life. That she resigned So I read this book to get out of my comfort zone. And nothing makes me more upset than reading a book featuring infidelity. No taboo/rape/assault affects my reading experience the same way. He did not deserve her. Personally, I believe he should have gotten a taste of his own medicine, because fidelity never existed for him - there was no respect for her. I can't even believe she touched him after she found out. That she resigned herself to being alone for the rest of her life. That she resigned herself to celibacy for 8 months until they reunite. That she had no friends who were honest with her. This book revealed that she is a lonely, lonely woman who has immersed herself into the safety that her relationship offered her. She never even tried to leave her comfort zone. I think had this book been about an amicable though painful separation, I would have rated it highly for it's honesty. And by taking him back, she did not set the right example for her children. It's only a matter of time before he cheats again physically, because he was already cheating in his mind once they started to reconnect. I think this book needs to reiterate the message that love does have limits.

  9. 4 out of 5

    Betül

    DNF @ 50% - so no rating! I was already struggling with this book at 5% and didn't know if I would make it till the end. And like you can see I didn't. I do love this author's writing, that was the main reason I didn't DNF right away and continued reading. However, the 'hero' in this book did something that I wouldn't be able to forgive in a million years. I was reading to see how the author would try to redeem him. I wanted to see how he would react and how the heroine would deal with the situa DNF @ 50% - so no rating! I was already struggling with this book at 5% and didn't know if I would make it till the end. And like you can see I didn't. I do love this author's writing, that was the main reason I didn't DNF right away and continued reading. However, the 'hero' in this book did something that I wouldn't be able to forgive in a million years. I was reading to see how the author would try to redeem him. I wanted to see how he would react and how the heroine would deal with the situation. (view spoiler)[ MAJOR SPOILER -------- Good for couples that can get past cheating, but It wasn't just one time. The main character had been cheating for over 10 years. No redeeming was possible in my opinion. I have nothing against couples that forgive and have a stronger relationship after it. But no way would I be able to deal with this. (hide spoiler)] No need for people to hit me with "it it just fiction'. Like every reader out there, I have my book pet peeves, and sometimes I can handle it and sometimes I can't. In this case I just couldn't get past it.

  10. 5 out of 5

    Raj

    If you were superman and cheating was your kryptonite than this book is going to be a nuclear bomb to your senses as it spans over a decade of serial cheating and the scenes of infidelity are explicit and bleed through from the previous book 'Groupie' with regards to the main character Santos . The author handles the fallout of the wife leaving her sex addicted husband with the dexterity of a knife thrower juggling a dozen sharp objects in the air and ensuring that each knife that falls,lands saf If you were superman and cheating was your kryptonite than this book is going to be a nuclear bomb to your senses as it spans over a decade of serial cheating and the scenes of infidelity are explicit and bleed through from the previous book 'Groupie' with regards to the main character Santos . The author handles the fallout of the wife leaving her sex addicted husband with the dexterity of a knife thrower juggling a dozen sharp objects in the air and ensuring that each knife that falls,lands safety and comfortably without any of them totally severing the fraying strings that hold this crumbling relationship together. Despite any abhorrence of the subject matter this book is truthfully written and makes no attempts to hide any minute dirty struggle that the characters under go in order to achieve monogamy or regain any trust that had been eviscerated.

  11. 4 out of 5

    Nikki ღ Navareus

    ***3.5 STARS*** (view spoiler)[ Cheating stories are totally my favorite theme, and I should have loved this one so much more. This story ran me through the entire gambit of emotions, from devastated and gutted, to heartbroken and infuriated!! And Santos displayed utter stupidity about the enormous amount of slutty whores he screwed constantly behind his wife's back: “No one thinks about how you could have other kids I don’t even know about. Or, or I could have a disease….” “No! Mari, I would never p ***3.5 STARS*** (view spoiler)[ Cheating stories are totally my favorite theme, and I should have loved this one so much more. This story ran me through the entire gambit of emotions, from devastated and gutted, to heartbroken and infuriated!! And Santos displayed utter stupidity about the enormous amount of slutty whores he screwed constantly behind his wife's back: “No one thinks about how you could have other kids I don’t even know about. Or, or I could have a disease….” “No! Mari, I would never put you in danger like that. I was always, always safe that way.” “So it never occurred to you that you kissed these whores on the mouth probably right after they got done sucking someone else’s dick without a condom?” "She’s right. I never even thought about that". Say What??? OMG, I wanted to kick Santos in the dick so hard at this point. It’s outrageous how he could screw such an enormous amount of other women in a decade of being with is wife, and he never even thought once about what kind of disease he could have infected himself and his wife with. Or how humiliating it would feel for Mari, or how devastated she’d be to find out he’d been with other women. Or how it would tear their lives apart and how the divorce would devastate his kids. Thankfully at this point, Santos finally stops screwing ALL those other slutty whores. OH SHIT!! That's right. He DIDN'T!! He just kept right on screwing them, no matter how much he kept fucking up his life because of it. Honestly, Santos seemed like a really great guy aside from his enormous amount of side pieces he got weekly. He was a great dad, and before Mari found out he was a serial cheating piece of shit, he was very good to her in all other ways. Despite him being a good guy sometimes, his addiction disgusted me. I just couldn't come around to loving him after all his actions. I loved that Mari moved her kiddos and herself into a new place as soon as she discovered she had been cheated on by Santos. I was impressed how Mari held her ground and got the divorce proceedings started. I even enjoyed the counseling Mari and Santos tried to muddle through to save their marriage. But I just couldn't see their marriage going anywhere else besides divorce, so I was ecstatic to see that go through as well. I also enjoyed the turbulence and devastation between these two during their separation and after their divorce. But in the end, when Mari finally took Santos back into her home again after the plethora of women he had cheater on her with over the years, I just wanted to shake her. If I had known her in real life, I would have told her the exact same thing I'd have told any of my other real life friends wanting to take their cheating ass husbands back: The story telling was tight and this story kept me invested despite my irritations. I just wish I could have loved this one a little bit more. (hide spoiler)]

  12. 5 out of 5

    Beth

    4.5 R.E.S.P.E.C.T. Stars Respect is earned. And it is often earned in pain and hurt feelings because sometimes we have to see someone at their worst, in the worst of times, to be able to respect that they came through those hard times. Santos is the goalie of the Texas Mutiny. He has a great reputation on the field. His team respects him and embraces him and his family. The problem is that he can't keep it in his pants. And that respect doesn't extend past the field. Everyone know he is cheating 4.5 R.E.S.P.E.C.T. Stars Respect is earned. And it is often earned in pain and hurt feelings because sometimes we have to see someone at their worst, in the worst of times, to be able to respect that they came through those hard times. Santos is the goalie of the Texas Mutiny. He has a great reputation on the field. His team respects him and embraces him and his family. The problem is that he can't keep it in his pants. And that respect doesn't extend past the field. Everyone know he is cheating on his wife and his children with anyone who is willing. It's ironic he never protected our family the way he protects that damn net. Mariana thought she had a great life. She thought she had friends and support. But it turns out she was blind to the real life they were living. Blind to the fact that her husband didn't respect her marriage. And the worst part....everyone knew it. I deserve respect....But I also deserve no regrets. Mari takes drastic steps to get the only respect she can get....self respect. Goalie is a hard book to read. It is full of truth, raw truth and raw emotions that it takes to get there. Like ground up chicken livers....raw. Goalie is also a tale of trying. Trying really hard to figure out what you want. What you deserve and what you will put up with. Just like in soccer, there are lines that can't be crossed. Lines that you must protect. Santos and Mari put it all out there. And ME Carter drags you through it all with them. This emotional meat grinder will have reading and hoping. The problem is you don't know what you are hoping for. Mari deserves to be happy but what does that mean? Can Santos be the man, the father, he wants to be? Maybe it's time to try harder. Even if it's only for myself. I love ME Carter's writing. She continues to amaze me as she grows a story teller. She has woven a story that is painful and private. You feel like you should look away. Or give someone a hug. Or a swift kick to the shin guards. So grab a tissue or a glass of wine and dive into Goalie. Don't expect ME Carter to protect your feelings.

  13. 4 out of 5

    Lydia's Romance

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. I need to rant badly. Not gonna lie, I skimmed a lot after 20something%. I picked this one because I find romance books with a cheating theme entertaining. I'm hopelessly addicted to the angst. Some of my favorites have actual cheating; some have a lot of gray area; others end up with no cheating at all--just a misunderstanding. Sue me, I'm a sucker for second chances, especially combined with the 'marriage in trouble' trope. Just give me all the redemption stories with lots of groveling and ato I need to rant badly. Not gonna lie, I skimmed a lot after 20something%. I picked this one because I find romance books with a cheating theme entertaining. I'm hopelessly addicted to the angst. Some of my favorites have actual cheating; some have a lot of gray area; others end up with no cheating at all--just a misunderstanding. Sue me, I'm a sucker for second chances, especially combined with the 'marriage in trouble' trope. Just give me all the redemption stories with lots of groveling and atonement. But this book was a fail. A major one. This cheating was just completely OTT, heartless, and shameless. For years and years he cheated with hundreds of women. Was he a drug addict? An alcoholic? Was his wife a bitch? Was this revenge? Maybe he just wasn't in love with his wife? No, silly people! He just gets an adrenaline rush after a game and sex helps him calm down. WTF. He only realizes how despicable his behavior is AFTER he gets caught. But he continues to do it! And all that mumbo jumbo psycho bullshit about him being a "situational sex addict" did not make it better! It made it even more annoying. I had hoped the author would convince me to give Santos a second chance. Gag. By the way, 'Santos' means 'saint.' HA! What's worse is that Mari was incredibly nice and civil to him. Sure, she leaves him but she was so damn passive. At one point she even says she will forever be alone because she can't love anyone else again. I HATE martyr heroines. I agree with what one of my Goodreads friends said in her review, I never even felt her pain. That's how passive and nice Mari was. He humiliated her the entire time they were together. More than a decade of screwing other women at after-parties and his teammates knowing about it. I mean, REALLY? And as if all that wasn't bad enough, we also get him fantasizing about screwing someone else almost at the end of the book. But hey, he was finally able to stop the urge! Let's give the boy a medal! The icing on the cake was Mari helping out one of his ex-fuck-girls just because said fuck-girl was reeeeally sorry. Ooooh, look how good Mari is for that selfless gesture. Grrrr Okay, I got that out.

  14. 4 out of 5

    Nadia

    I'll be honest, I went into this book preparing to hate Santos and rooting for Mari to kick him to the curb. While, initially I still felt like that, alas, my feeling about him and his relationship with Mari changed. He really fought hard and won me over. I've noticed this is a continued trend with M.E. Carter, I went into Groupie prepared to dislike Tiffany or at least not love her, boy did that change. It is the same with Goalie. I slowly but surely fell in love with, not the person he was but I'll be honest, I went into this book preparing to hate Santos and rooting for Mari to kick him to the curb. While, initially I still felt like that, alas, my feeling about him and his relationship with Mari changed. He really fought hard and won me over. I've noticed this is a continued trend with M.E. Carter, I went into Groupie prepared to dislike Tiffany or at least not love her, boy did that change. It is the same with Goalie. I slowly but surely fell in love with, not the person he was but the man he became. I mean generally Santos is an awesome dad, he loves his children, and besides the cheating he was a good husband in all other regards. "Watching" Santos and Mari's marriage disintegrate was heartbreaking, the damage and pain and the betrayal of what Santos has done ruined their relationship and the trust that was between them. What I love though is how hard these fought for their marriage, and the changes they gave each other so there would be no regrets. I absolutely love that they are good parents, and co-parent so beautifully, they put their children first, they are Santos and Mari's priority (as they should be). Reading about the journey these two went through was excruciating and brutal as heck. I cried so much, I went through every emotion under the rainbow. At first, I felt disillusioned, but in the end watching them grow individually and work on their flaws - Mari, too - and how they overcame obstacles and then grow together as two people was beautiful and heart-wrenching. I felt emotionally and mentally drained after finishing this book, my soul was tired and I felt it deep in my bones. the impact it had on me. This book fundamentally touched me, it changed me, it's raw, painful, brutal and incredibly moving story touched a special place in my heart and deep in my soul. This book was to its core realistic, it never once diminished the severeness of Santos actions or the consequences of those, Mari did not excuse his actions or look away or easily forgive what he had done. But, it taught so many good life lessons, that no matter what you have done, it is never too late to be remorseful and fight for redemption, forgiveness and a second chance. "I demand respects because I deserve respect." This is one of the most 'real' love stories I have read, I highly recommend it! Just prepare a s**t ton of Kleenex, you're gonna need it.

  15. 5 out of 5

    Ana

    Nope not gonna happen.Once a cheater always a cheater.Is the heroine at the end done with this ass? Did she have her HEA with someone else? Then I'll read it if not,there's no reason to.Don't f...... care if it's well written Nope not gonna happen.Once a cheater always a cheater.Is the heroine at the end done with this ass? Did she have her HEA with someone else? Then I'll read it if not,there's no reason to.Don't f...... care if it's well written

  16. 5 out of 5

    ★ Belle The Bibliophile ★

    Update: 21st of February, 2017 Before I begin this. Just because I read a book with a cheater/cheating in it, doesn't mean that I condone cheaters/the act of cheating. People who know me personally know just how much I hate cheaters/cheating. I've seen it happened to someone I care about. So yeah. Not condoning. Capiche? This book is all about me wanting to get out of my comfort zone for a bit. So after careful consideration, I decided to give this book a 2-star. I've had time to ruminate everyt Update: 21st of February, 2017 Before I begin this. Just because I read a book with a cheater/cheating in it, doesn't mean that I condone cheaters/the act of cheating. People who know me personally know just how much I hate cheaters/cheating. I've seen it happened to someone I care about. So yeah. Not condoning. Capiche? This book is all about me wanting to get out of my comfort zone for a bit. So after careful consideration, I decided to give this book a 2-star. I've had time to ruminate everything, and I think that while the author used a difficult topic/theme with this one, she went about it through an easy route. Let me explain. The heroine, stuck through her guns for as long as she could. As long as she could being the keyword. They went through therapy and she still left him after that, she gave it good. I think. But the author made her to be SO FUCKING NICE. So saintly. Doormat. It annoyed me too much. I know that she was gunning for a happy ending for the characters but they made it so that she's ~too in love~ with him. They made both characters to be a soulmates. So how convenient that she would take him back right? They separated for 6 months and they got divorced after that but how could you get over years of betrayal that quickly? The 6 months were even fast-forwarded. I need MORE. And the Hero. He didn't fully redeem himself. Not at all. I mean there were times I thought that he could be redeemed but he disappointed me over and over again. What I do get is that he's good with his kid but I guess being a great father and a great husband do not go hand in hand for him. Another thing I found too convenient. The reason for his cheating. Mind you, he was never faithful to her. Not even when they were still dating. (view spoiler)[ It was revealed that he had a situational sex addict. It's kind of like a functioning alcoholic. While the author made sure that it wasn't made to be an excuse but it still is convenient???? Okay the Hero is a cheater!!! He can't help himself!!! But he also knows what he's doing!!! (hide spoiler)] The book ended on a semi-good note where the Hero and heroine are living with each other. They don't share a room but they are taking it one step at a time. Which is... whatever. But it still felt abrupt to me. At that point it did feel like it was way too fast for me so it just ruined the flow. While I hated those bits. There are certain things that I did like about the book. I liked that the heroine stuck to her guns.... longer than most heroine would (the bar is set so low!). I liked the author's writing style. I liked some of the scenes where the Hero was suffering. LOL. Overall, this book was a... painful read. The heroine deserved better. Honestly I wish the heroine was more of a Scorpio like me. If I were her, I would make him grovel over and over again, continously....'till he bleeds..... and still leave him. Because this girl ain't got no time for anyone's bs. ----------- I feel like this book deserve a longer review but I'm too exhausted to write anything right now. I know. EXCUSES. But I'm not lying. I swear lol. I would really like to give this book a 4 star at the very least but I can't. Bear in mind it has got nothing to do with the theme. Anyway. This book is definitely NOT safe. Stay away from it if you hate cheating Heroes. Honestly in my opinion, this book is so much more than the infidelity in it, but I understand not everyone can stomach it.

  17. 5 out of 5

    Kim

    honestly, this writer's writing wasn't too bad except for editing errors. her subject matter was just very unpalatable. women can get cheated on but women who choose to get cheated on i don't identify with. it's simply a personal preference. i can't believe that a supposed great love would disrespect and endanger the love of his life. the idea that women get cheated on -especially in droves- and forgive is simply normalised abuse. i also resent women being written as people who would give up the honestly, this writer's writing wasn't too bad except for editing errors. her subject matter was just very unpalatable. women can get cheated on but women who choose to get cheated on i don't identify with. it's simply a personal preference. i can't believe that a supposed great love would disrespect and endanger the love of his life. the idea that women get cheated on -especially in droves- and forgive is simply normalised abuse. i also resent women being written as people who would give up their sexuality and future happiness because the cheating ex does not want another man to raise is kids. this is a doormat's love story, not mine.

  18. 5 out of 5

    Angie

    Wow. This is one of the better books I've read that tackles infidelity. I thought it was incredibly realistic. I wish more authors would go there as it's not a deal breaker for ALL readers. But if cheating is a no go for you then you should stay far far away from this book. Mari has a gut feeling Santos, her husband of ten years and goalie for a pro soccer team, is cheating on her and her suspicions are confirmed when she confronts a groupie. She then packs herself and their three kids and goes Wow. This is one of the better books I've read that tackles infidelity. I thought it was incredibly realistic. I wish more authors would go there as it's not a deal breaker for ALL readers. But if cheating is a no go for you then you should stay far far away from this book. Mari has a gut feeling Santos, her husband of ten years and goalie for a pro soccer team, is cheating on her and her suspicions are confirmed when she confronts a groupie. She then packs herself and their three kids and goes to stay with her mother. Santos needs to expend his excess energy after every game, that's how he justifies banging cleat chasers. And boy do we get a firsthand account of his activities. He also hates the idea of taking his wife like that, he feels she deserves to be made love to. But he gets a rude awakening when he comes home and discovers his family is gone. I liked Mari in this book. She stuck to her guns and she demanded respect while still trying to make the divorce amicable for the kids' sake. But she was also vulnerable. When it's fiction it's easy to say divorce him and don't look back. But in reality it's messy. There's yelling and crying. It's not easy when kids are involved, it's not easy when there's ten years of good memories, it's not easy when you're afraid to be alone. Even though Mari was pretty decisive regarding the divorce she had moments of self doubt. I felt her pain and conflict. Santos was something else. Wow. I can't even say I hated him. It felt like he separated himself from the cheating. He really was leading two lives. He loved his wife and kids and their home. But then he also loved his team and the parties. He never really woke up until Mari left him. He put in the work to get Mari back but I think therapy was his saving grace to change his patterns. I also thought Mari was spot on with all of the words she threw at him. He deserved it. I wouldn't even say we got a clear cut HEA because that's not what their story calls for. It's a work in progress. I really enjoyed it.

  19. 4 out of 5

    Cc

    2.5 ⭐️'s Ok, gonna be honest. I didn't like the authors writing style. I just couldn't connect with either character. But that's on me because this was a well written, interesting book, I just couldn't feel the angst. It was more tell than show and I just NEVER FELT HER PAIN OR HIS REMORSE. I capitalized that bc this book deals with the fall out of a sexual addicts behavior over YEARS, so, yeah. Again technically well written but missing the angst. 2.5 ⭐️'s Ok, gonna be honest. I didn't like the authors writing style. I just couldn't connect with either character. But that's on me because this was a well written, interesting book, I just couldn't feel the angst. It was more tell than show and I just NEVER FELT HER PAIN OR HIS REMORSE. I capitalized that bc this book deals with the fall out of a sexual addicts behavior over YEARS, so, yeah. Again technically well written but missing the angst.

  20. 4 out of 5

    Stephanie

    Meh 😒

  21. 4 out of 5

    Heroesinbooks

    4.5 Brutally Honest Stars This book surprised me. I normally run screaming for the hills when a book contains infidelity and sex scenes with other women/men. However, this one grabbed my attention and I dived into it , desperately hoping that I wouldn't be disappointed and heart sore after reading it. This novel exceeded my expectations. Yes, there's infidelity and yes the break up is brutal but WOW, what an after story. This book is more about the survival of a break up and the healing. Jump int 4.5 Brutally Honest Stars This book surprised me. I normally run screaming for the hills when a book contains infidelity and sex scenes with other women/men. However, this one grabbed my attention and I dived into it , desperately hoping that I wouldn't be disappointed and heart sore after reading it. This novel exceeded my expectations. Yes, there's infidelity and yes the break up is brutal but WOW, what an after story. This book is more about the survival of a break up and the healing. Jump into this book and let it carry you along. I kept thinking about it all the time and at times I cried whilst reading , especially for Mari. But what really shocked me was that I felt sorry for Santos. Never expected that. It left me feeling like love can conquer all. It's not pretty but it's powerful reading. There are welcome lighter moments too. HEA? More an HFN but there is a short follow up, Megged, which I'm reading next. Cheating? Yes. Clearly. The explicit scene is at the start and there is a brief interlude of him having (receiving) oral sex further on. Recommend over 18's only.

  22. 5 out of 5

    Samradni Eater of Burgers

    I hated it. While the h is going around handling 3 children, keeping her marriage together , her husband is going around fucking groupies. And somehow it is justifiable because he loves fucking and feels like his wife deserves to be made love to instead of 'getting fucked from behind'. From henceforth I'm gonna call the male character "B" For Bastard, cause I canNot for the love of God call him Hero. It felt like the book was trying to justify his cheating rather than condemning it. I don't thin I hated it. While the h is going around handling 3 children, keeping her marriage together , her husband is going around fucking groupies. And somehow it is justifiable because he loves fucking and feels like his wife deserves to be made love to instead of 'getting fucked from behind'. From henceforth I'm gonna call the male character "B" For Bastard, cause I canNot for the love of God call him Hero. It felt like the book was trying to justify his cheating rather than condemning it. I don't think cheating is justifiable in any sense, but if I'm reading a book about it I'd prefer the B on his knees -humbled and begging. And the worst thing is he kept sleeping around even when they were separated. All while whining about missing his wife. The ending would have been so much better if he had woken up Dick-less. I'm sure with all the fucking around it would be STD ridden anyways. Bloody fucktard bastard. I don't believe for a second he won't cheat on her again. This book got me all riled up. Edit: So I re-read it and upped the rating from 1 to 2 stars. But that doesn't mean I take back anything I wrote earlier. It's still so flawed.

  23. 4 out of 5

    Erika ♥OwlwaysReading♥

  24. 5 out of 5

    Marieke ~ Marieke's Books

    I love reading romantic stories in all its various degrees. Happy, sad, brutal, I have no subject I’m ‘scared’ off. However, there’s one topic I try to stay away from as much as possible; cheating. I just can’t read about it, it makes me sad for the person who’s cheated on and so angry at the cheater. M.E. Carter’s new book Goalie is about cheating and the effects on a couple’s marriage. In previous book from ‘the Texas Mutiny Series’ – Groupie – we’ve seen a bit about Santos and his wife Marian I love reading romantic stories in all its various degrees. Happy, sad, brutal, I have no subject I’m ‘scared’ off. However, there’s one topic I try to stay away from as much as possible; cheating. I just can’t read about it, it makes me sad for the person who’s cheated on and so angry at the cheater. M.E. Carter’s new book Goalie is about cheating and the effects on a couple’s marriage. In previous book from ‘the Texas Mutiny Series’ – Groupie – we’ve seen a bit about Santos and his wife Mariana. Goalie gives us the full picture of their heartbreaking and realistic story. I love it. “My mind is spinning. She left me. She took my kids and she left me. I had everything I ever wanted but just lost it all. And it’s all my own damn fault.” Santos has it all; a beautiful loving wife, three amazing children and a great job as the Texas Mutiny’s goalie. However, with the team also come the wild after-parties and the team groupies. And Santos indulges himself with the groupies, a lot. He knows his wife will be very hurt if she finds about his escapades, but he buries his feelings of guilt, talking it right for himself. When Mariana finds out about his activities, Santos is broken when she leaves him, taking the children with her. Finally realizing the full impact of what he has put his wife through, Santos is in for the fight of his life. “I wept. Like a fucking baby. I wept for the loss of my wife. I wept for the loss of my children. I wept for the loss of the life I loved. In a weird way, I wept for the loss of myself. I don’t know why it didn’t occur to me that I was living a weird double life. What is wrong with me that I could so easily push down the guilt every time I did it?” Mariana thought she was the luckiest woman in the world; a devoted, loving husband and three adorable little children. But somewhere in the back of her mind she always questioned Santos’s afterparties with his team members. Being the sweet, gentle soul she is, she doesn’t ask about it, doesn’t want to push for information. When she finally finds out what goes on at the parties – and the full depth of her husband’s betrayal – Mariana does what most women would do, she leaves with her children. A devastated Mariana wants to put the past behind her and move on, but unfortunately her heart still belongs to Santos. “I miss Santos so much I can hardly take it. I miss the way he always has a smile on his face. I miss the way he sings off key in the shower. I miss the way he would smack my ass on his way out the door and say “I love that this is mine.” I miss his smell, and his voice, and his presence. I miss my life with him, and I’m so pissed off that he did this to us. That he ruined everything.” From the moment Santos and Mariana met in college, they fell hard and fast for each other. Now they are married for ten years and have three young children to take care of. Mariana can’t wish for a better husband and father, when he’s home he’s an all-in hubby and dad; he loves her and helps with the kids whenever he can. Mariana is Santos’s soulmate. He worships her and loves how she takes care of him and the children. To the eye, they have the perfect marriage, but Santos’s cheating wrecks it all, although she loves him, Mariana can’t trust him anymore. Going through with the divorce procedures breaks Mariana’s heart, she still loves him but the trust is gone. Since they share children Santos and Mariana keep seeing each other, and very slowly it becomes clear they might have a chance to overcome the breakdown of their marriage. M.E. Carter, what have you done to me? Starting Goalie I knew this would be a brutal and heartbreaking book and the author did deliver. Cheating in my romance books and in real life is something I don’t want, in my opinion it is one of the things a relation can’t recover from. However, Goalie changed my view. There are cases in which a relation can survive a betrayal, even can get better. The marriage of Mariana and Santos is one of those cases. Yes, what Santos did to Mariana was terrible and devastating. But he owned it. He didn’t make excuses and didn’t blame other people for his actions but himself. Throughout the story there are reasons given for Santos’s infidelities, but the author makes it very clear it was his choice to act on his needs, no one forced him. I love Mariana, she’s such a sweet soul who didn’t deserve to suffer because of her husband’s actions. I understand why she choose to give Santos another chance, he still had her heart. However, she’s not a pushover but a strong woman who does what’s right for herself and her children. “Mari, the kind of trust I broke doesn’t take weeks or months to rebuild. It takes years. Years. You have every right to doubt me. I can promise all day long, but in the end, the only way to help you feel better is to show you. Never be sorry for looking. Never be sorry for reminding me not to let my guard down. This is how we’re going to rebuild what was broken. Together.” I love Mariana and Santos and their raw and painful story, love isn’t black or white. I give Goalie 5+ stars. www.mariekesbooks.com

  25. 4 out of 5

    Jessica *The Lovely Books*

    This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. Honestly, I think one needs to be in the mood for a book like this. I was. I wanted to read a book with a hero cheating and then groveling. He groveled alright but in the end...I don’t think he paid enough for what he put his dear sweet wife through. On one hand I really loved Santos but in another, I hated him for his weakness towards sex. I hated that he loved and adored his wife and family so much, but still cheated like it was nothing. FOR YEARS! Yes, everything is explained on why but it st Honestly, I think one needs to be in the mood for a book like this. I was. I wanted to read a book with a hero cheating and then groveling. He groveled alright but in the end...I don’t think he paid enough for what he put his dear sweet wife through. On one hand I really loved Santos but in another, I hated him for his weakness towards sex. I hated that he loved and adored his wife and family so much, but still cheated like it was nothing. FOR YEARS! Yes, everything is explained on why but it still wouldn’t be enough for me. That kind of infidelity cuts you so deep to the core... With all that jazz being said, I enjoyed the story so much. Marianna is a wonderful character and despite what some may think of her, I don’t think she’s a weak woman for the way the book ended. It takes a lot of strength to push forward and forgive the unforgivable. There was one part in the story that did bug me. The part where Mari blames part of the infidelity on herself. She said that part of her knew the whole time what he was doing. She basically did the whole ‘ignorance is bliss’ shit and pretended it didn’t exist. And then proceeded to say if she would have just opened her mouth sooner, then maybe his cheating ways would have stopped sooner. Or that they could have worked on it a lot sooner. I didn’t like that at all. When a person cheats...that’s solely all on them. I don’t agree with her having any part in his infidelity. Do I agree that she should have said something sooner? Yes. But only so she could leave his ass sooner. (There goes my love/hate relationship with him again) I’m satisfied with the ending well enough. But I’m not convinced he won’t cheat again.

  26. 5 out of 5

    Robyn

    4.5 Transparent Stars Well, I’ll be honest...this story was very hard to read at times. However, it was so honest, raw and unexpectedly realistic in its depiction, I couldn’t put it down. I’d never come across a story quite like this one. I always bump up my ratings for originality, this was one was no exception. My heart went out to Mariana, a thousand times over! Most women can put themselves in her place, and empathize with her— given the trauma Santos thoughtless repeated actions caused her. 4.5 Transparent Stars Well, I’ll be honest...this story was very hard to read at times. However, it was so honest, raw and unexpectedly realistic in its depiction, I couldn’t put it down. I’d never come across a story quite like this one. I always bump up my ratings for originality, this was one was no exception. My heart went out to Mariana, a thousand times over! Most women can put themselves in her place, and empathize with her— given the trauma Santos thoughtless repeated actions caused her. Honestly, I was hoping her dating would go a little further...Santos’ ass needed to suffer maximum heartbreak, in my opinion. In the begging of this book, his ONLY saving grace was that he was a great dad. I was surprised by both their vulnerability at the marriage conference, and literally shocked she made the decision she did. I was so disgusted when I learned the extent of his infidelity, so I guess I maybe should have seen it coming. Some men are if a different species, I swear! They think if they have sex with no emotion attached that it’s no big deal—WRONG! In the end, and after a few years, Santos worked hard to undo unhealthy patterns he set himself up for from the very beginning. Mari learned a lot about herself, as well and learned to forgive and trust, in baby steps. Again, this was not an easy read, since cheating, especially in circumstances like these is a hot button, pet peeve of mine. The growth of these two, and the love they had for their small children, and ultimately for each other won out! This story has become my favorite of the series—really loved this one!

  27. 5 out of 5

    Bev

    3.75 conflicted stars Edited because after reading Megged, which is the conclusion/epilogue to Santos and Mari's story, I'm upping my rating to 5 stars. If ever a character WORKED and FOUGHT to earn his forgiveness it's Santos. And I love the character growth they both had in Megged. So because I loved this book does that mean I'm making fun of marriage vows? Um that would be a big fat nope. I'm married, very happily so and would never cast the first stone at anyone that messes up, even as hugel 3.75 conflicted stars Edited because after reading Megged, which is the conclusion/epilogue to Santos and Mari's story, I'm upping my rating to 5 stars. If ever a character WORKED and FOUGHT to earn his forgiveness it's Santos. And I love the character growth they both had in Megged. So because I loved this book does that mean I'm making fun of marriage vows? Um that would be a big fat nope. I'm married, very happily so and would never cast the first stone at anyone that messes up, even as hugely as Santos did especially when he owned his fuck ups and worked tirelessly to put them right. (Original review) I really liked this one, despite Santos being a serial cheater. I think that's because Mari stood up to him when she eventually got her head out of the clouds and saw what a selfish moron he actually was. And being a bloke, once he realised what he had lost due to his own crass stupidity he worked - man did he ever work - to earn forgiveness. BUT!! See, that's where I'm conflicted, forgiveness is one thing but TRUST?? That he shredded by his own foolish actions and by the end of the book I didn't believe that she would ever be able to trust him again (not that I would have either). Then I read Megged and my whole view on this book changed. So kudos to the author, this was brilliant.

  28. 5 out of 5

    Dawn

    Hmmm I see what the author tried to do here and in a way I can respect it. Unfortunately she made two fatal flaws that kept this from being a successful romantic story. 1st giving us the mental image of him with the other women. Once those scenes were planted, it was over for me. Think about it, we had to witness his cheating. We were in the room. His wife barely heard the stories and divorced him for over two years... The second mistake is connected to the first. Since we were able to see his (t Hmmm I see what the author tried to do here and in a way I can respect it. Unfortunately she made two fatal flaws that kept this from being a successful romantic story. 1st giving us the mental image of him with the other women. Once those scenes were planted, it was over for me. Think about it, we had to witness his cheating. We were in the room. His wife barely heard the stories and divorced him for over two years... The second mistake is connected to the first. Since we were able to see his (trashy and grotesque) hookups, we were able to bear witness to the general way he treated these women. Supposedly it was about a quick screw a random groupie to get adrenaline out. But instead what I see him having multiple encounters with the same women, and what’s worse is how tender he was after their encounters. Not one of them left him feeling disgusted with himself or them (until after he got caught). No instead he was kissing their forehead or neck and calling them baby. Sorry I could forgive a blowjob easier than a forehead kiss, it’s way more intimate. To me, those two things made this story a failure...

  29. 4 out of 5

    Jac K

    Santos and Mariana They’ve been married for 10 years and have 3 small children. Mari finally decides to confirm her suspicions that he is unfaithful, and leaves him. The book follows their journey through separation, divorce and everything along the way. The book is told through dual POV’s, there is audio that’s part of the audible escapes package although I didn’t listen to it. There is cheating ( I believe 2 scenes where we actually read ) and he admits to being unfaithful a lot. So if that is s Santos and Mariana They’ve been married for 10 years and have 3 small children. Mari finally decides to confirm her suspicions that he is unfaithful, and leaves him. The book follows their journey through separation, divorce and everything along the way. The book is told through dual POV’s, there is audio that’s part of the audible escapes package although I didn’t listen to it. There is cheating ( I believe 2 scenes where we actually read ) and he admits to being unfaithful a lot. So if that is something that is a hard limit... I would pass. I’m torn, the subject matter made it very hard for me to care about the characters, but Santos is very remorseful so that helps.

  30. 4 out of 5

    Mari

    4.5 - 5 stars This the first time I've read a book that had this concept. Dealing with the what if or what can happen after infidelity in a marriage. That author note is definitely thought provoking on the subject. Gray area is always fascinating to explore in this case. This one is pretty gritty and raw emotionally. No one would like to be in this situation for sure reading about it and facing the reality is a lot different.. A tricky subject since I think everyone has their own beliefs about ch 4.5 - 5 stars This the first time I've read a book that had this concept. Dealing with the what if or what can happen after infidelity in a marriage. That author note is definitely thought provoking on the subject. Gray area is always fascinating to explore in this case. This one is pretty gritty and raw emotionally. No one would like to be in this situation for sure reading about it and facing the reality is a lot different.. A tricky subject since I think everyone has their own beliefs about cheating, once a cheater and all that. I think coming into this with an open mind will put their journey in perspective. Ironically the previous book was weird for me not because of the cheating but because of the character's actions was kinda off- putting. Santos was an ass and he screwed up bad, I wanted to see him get his just desserts but also I wanted to see if things change. It's was heartbreaking and sad seeing the consequences for the family. So many emotions. Let's face it here is the double standard with Santos. I was shocked he doesn't see what was wrong until it all falls apart of him. When he realizes he is living a double life, the disparity is so obvious when his is with his team. That is something to suss out why, I mean it's not something new the cheating but there was something to think about his actions. I wanted to know for sure. I would also think he should know better, all about choices in that. His wake up call starts now. A case of don't know what you got till it's gone. He had it so good supportive, thoughtful and kind wife and he took it for granted. Santos is a good dad and a good husband but he lost himself that was just sad that. He lost a lot of things, when they get to heart of the matter it's taking it all in. I like that he was proactive and did something get to the bottom of shit. I think he proved himself and made himself more worthy. I'm torn really how I wanted this to go but I wanted to keep my mind open. I have to applaud them for trying to seek another way to salvage or fight for their marriage. Those truth bombs though can't ignore and eye openers it hurts. It's brutally intense, but they learned a lot about themselves. It can never be easy owning up to your own shortcomings. Shit is getting real folks. I'm impressed though they how honest they got. You know it's bad when you feel like you cry and not know it. Even though I can't really relate to their situation the emotions are there and it hits you. It doesn't have to be marriage basically any relationship after getting it's foundation shaken. They had a lot of obstacles and issues to work on and that will be a process. I'm glad we both of their PoVs for this one it's crucial in the overall. It's work but they handled things with maturity and gained something. It showed the situation as it is no sugarcoating no excuses. If you want something you have to fight for it, if you want forgiveness you need to earn it. I like that it gave a new perspective on that subject. I can see drastic shift in everything and realizations for both of them, no cut and dry right of wrong answer in their circumstances. It was great that they put the kids well being first over many things and remained amicable, co-parenting without bitterness. I felt like there were many ways this story could've gone too. M.E. Carter made it as real as possible, brought out the emotions of the topic while maintaining neutral. Goalie was truly an emotional and honest journey for Santos and Mariana, reading it isn't easy on the feels. They went through the wringer and back, a lot of individual growth and changes were made. I really kept thinking about that one thing mentioned the decisions you make are yours and yours alone, all relationships are different. I'm sure not everyone will agree or understand the outcome here but for me I'm satisfied. Some people say you throw in the towel too early but when is it too early? It certainly made me think of all the couples who have lasted I'm sure they had their fair share of roadblocks and hardships but what did make them go through it all? Food for thought. This isn't a simple love story, it's real and honest. *** ARC provided for an honest review ***

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